Have you ever seen this movie? (what a stupid question, of course you have, if you are in any way interested in fashion). I remembered that story because my life is really similar.
When I first came to work in the Fashion House, I was I like the ugly duckling – no style, no fashionable, no knowledge of fashion brands.. I was very naive, I wanted to give my whole heart for everything I was doing, but no one cared. I was hoping to become an indispensable, but nobody needed. And then I realized what a fake fashion world is and how strong you have to be if you want to remain yourself. Would be really wrong to say that the whole fashion world is vanity fair, but sincerity certainly is a rare phenomenon.
So why I’m still here? It’s difficult to answer, but I think the biggest reason is practice. I want to learn not giving my smile and warmth for those who don’t deserve all this. I want to learn how to fight for my dreams and how to achieve them. How to stay real when all around you only countless masks, how to stay strong, when everyone wants to tread you down all the time. And probably I want to make sure that Fashion World is not for me.
Several years ago I dreamed about working in fashion. I thought that everything is so beautiful there – lots of creativity and charm. Unfortunately, all the gloss was just outside, inside everything was black and dirty. All based on commercial principles and creativity remains in the background. This is the bitter truth and I was able to make sure that, when a few days ago I was in Paris Fashion Week (yes, it sounds exactly the same as the movie, I was there with my director as her assistant).
Designers came from the most different countries to the fashion capital – Paris. This had to be a nice fashion event in a beautiful place, but all the rooms were full of envy and everyone thought that namely he or she is the best. I think fashion for those people wasn’t in the first place. Much more important was to criticize others, to sell as many items as is possible and (how could I forget this!) to snap up everyone who is somewhat famous in the Fashion World.
But not everything was so bad. I met several interesting and sincere people, who associate fashion with art and who really love what they do. I also visited Paris (I dreamed about this city from an early age) and I had the opportunity to see this beautiful city almost midnight from the Eiffel tower top. It was so breathtaking despite the fact that I was there alone and all around me was full of couple, champagne and roses.
Paris, I’ll be back! And next time I’ll be in the right place with right people 🙂